Make "Their" Faith Your Own

I am not sure where to begin in explaining the stirring that is in my soul.  I have been on the quest of searching for a needle in a haystack in this market - a job! 

Still plagued with flashbacks and insecurities  from the rude exit  I had from my last organization, the fact that the medicine I am on makes me fatigued and the only way I can describe my brain sometimes is it does not seem to understand how to "connect the dots" in the recall area so as to be able to communicate in a way that is somewhat intelligent. 

Now this does propose a problem when you are looking for that next opportunity that you know God has for you.  I am being blessed in so many ways and yet I do need to get a job.  But not just any job, the job I know God has for me.  I have interviewed a few times but nothing has seemed like the right fit. 

I recently met a friend named Susan who told me to contact Tony, who told me to contact Patty a recruiter.  I reached out to Patty two weeks ago who immediately responded.  That in itself was a blessing if you have ever worked with a recruiter you know what I am talking about.

Patty sent me an email after she viewed my Linkedin profile and asked me if I was looking for a job to which I immediately responded "Yes I am." She said she was working on a search and my international background, along with manufacturing and the successes I have had with helping to lead culture turnarounds were a good fit for the company.  This is a small company that is moving it's HDQ here who was looking for a Director of HR.  "Luann we want to send you on an interview with the President on Tuesday".   Patty in the closing of our interview said to me "Luann timing is everything."  I thought to my self "Patty you have no idea..and so right about that."

As I got in the car after the interview I was on quite a high.  I then gave all the praise to God for his encouragement because I could not have planned this if I wanted to saying to myself "God I am going to trust you!"

No sooner did I get those words out of my mouth, doubts creep in.  "Luann this is not going to happen you will not be able to communicate in the interview, you will not be able to really help them."  It was all down hill from there.

God must have a sense of humor as he watched this gal who has no more estrogen in her to even have an emotion be strung out on lies.  I am sure he was thinking "Luann, Luann, I told you I would never leave you or forsake you.  When I say never, I mean never.  Not now, not tomorrow..Never!"

On Saturday I practiced interviewing with a prominent business friend at Panera Bread in which I royally bombed.  Doomed again!  Now the thought of blowing the interview and being embarrassed in front of a group was more than I could stand.  Still I continued to fight these thoughts of not being able to do this stupid interview.

I was having quiet time on Monday morning before I practiced for the interview AGAIN.  My gosh it was like I was taking a college final exam! 

Anyway I was having a one way conversation with God.  "God I am afraid I am just not going to be able to talk and I will look stupid."  God gently took hold of my way word spirit and brought to mind the Apostle Paul who was not an eloquent speaker but God gave him the words to change the world.  Moses was not a great speaker yet God gave Moses the words to speak and he communicated the 10 commandments.

It was if God said to me "Luann I have given you this opportunity, you must take what I have done in the past with Paul and Moses and you must make their faith your own.  You must trust  me like they trusted me and believe that I am able and will do the same for you.  I will go in front of you preparing the way.  It is not enough for you to admire what I did with these people who are just like you, you must make their faith your own to truly walk by faith by sight.

The interview as yesterday and while I was in the interview I know God was right there with me helping me to speak and it went well.  Still it was not perfect, but it went well.

Can you believe it when I got home those darn doubts started creeping back in.  I had almost talked myself out of the possibility of being in the running for this when I woke up this morning and felt God give me the answer to a question the President asked me which just didn't come out yesterday.

Hopping out of bed, I started writing my Thank You notes to the team from the interview yesterday with my solution to the problem the president presented and rushed it over via Chevalier Express at 10:00 AM today. 

God has set straight in my head that he does have plans for me and I don't have to do it myself.  Oh I am so grateful for this happening and I just want to encourage you today to make "their" faith your own.  This was truly one of the biggest faith steps I have ever had.  Yes God I am trusting you!

The next step in the process is the company will be inviting back the top two candidates.  Hoping one of those candidates will be me.

Walking by faith not by sight as I run the race.  Luann